Sunday, October 23, 2005 @1:26 PM
hias. why do i regret so much?why is it only now that i learn that all i did was a mistake.i always thot it was the right thing to do.yet now. after so long. i finally realise that its not all right.its all a mistake. > <why? its all too late now.all that i did. cant be undone anymore.im such a fucking failure. hias. > <my life is in a drastic mess.i feel so restless.i have no goal anymore.aimlessly walking around.i feel so pathetic.what do i want?i dont know at all.i feel so worthless.i never felt like this before.this is the first.& i dont know how to deal with it.how i wish i cann just pause everything.until i get back to my old self.but thats impossible.cos everything is still moving.changing. & im getting left behind.every second that pass.im drifting away from my friends,family & people everywhere.how?! > <hias.
