Friday, April 14, 2006 @11:14 PM
i knew it would come one day..ever since i had a memory,i knew this day would come.the day that you would leave me for good..but ive always successfully escape from that thot.but now,.i cant..can i be more selfish ?can i make you stay ?i know i cant.ive successfully made you stay for so long.now, its time to let you go..but i dont want to..but yet i cant bring myself to hold on to you,even thou how much i wish to-in my heart..i remembered that christmas..when you werent there,.i felt so lost & lonely.& i missed you so bad.so bad that i just wanted to cry till i couldnt cry no more.& upon reading the card you left for me,tears just fell continuosly down my face.as i unwrapped the presents you left for me,it feels like all the warm poured out.it made me smile, but cried even more.as you werent there. & i missed you so.i swore silently in my heart.that i never wanted to go back to that night.but it seems, that it came & found me.i cant imagine the days without you.no one to call me everyday to nag on me to return home early,to nag at me to do this, to do that.no one to listen to all my complaints.no one to walk me home when its late.no one to wake me up in the morning.etc & ,.whats more, no one to care for me 24/7.it feels like yr soul is being ripped from you.that without you, im not me.i cant be me..emotion i may be.but i cant help it.. really.life is just one hell of a joke.& im in it.. [ XXX ] ; *<1+2>
