Monday, December 11, 2006 @4:11 PM
its pouring outside right now. stuck in the office with my mom. left with nothing to do. aimlessly surfing arnd the net. thinking back at all ive been through. memories that will follow me. there was once, when i watched a show on tv, there was a phrase that, " memories are just memories. they do not possess the power to change anything. " is that true ? somehow, when i think back, & look at the present, i feel that it is true. memories may be beautiful then & always will, but they do not have the power to change anything. they are just,.. memories. beautiful memories for you to look back & smile. (: its quite saddening thou. hmms. anyway, the thunder now is like so damn loud ! Xl gosh. its like a million pots & pans crashing against one another. Xl as times past, you grow apart. i knew that since the day you were gone. now, its really happening. all of the past we had together suddenly seem to have no status. but what does these tears in my eyes mean ? each time i think about you, tears just gathers in my eyes & my heart just aches so much. but i dont know what does all these mean. my head is heavy, my nose is block. my eyes are sleepy & all i hear, are "AH CHOO ! ". woke up at 8.15am this morning. slept late, woke up early. so now, im just caught in a serious headache. my eye hurts too. Xl i want to sleep. Xl i dont know what i'm doing is right. i may be cruel & heartless to you. but, i feel its better for you. i know the feelings are still there. thats why, all the more i have to do it to you. im sorry to have hurt you. but to be closer to you is to hurt you even more. i dont know if its the right thing to do. but at least i know, i wont hurt you in the long run. to know that the feelings are not gone, i just cant bring myself to be close to you. i'll just be hurting you. not that im not now, but in the long run, it'll all be gone. im sorry. i just hope y'll understand. even if you dont, its alright. (: oh man. Xl the thunder just sounded like a rifle shooting out a million bullets in a row. & im not kidding. its like really " bang ! bang ! bang ! bang ! bang ! " only, LOUDER. Xl its just a cold & dark Monday. plus, a really quiet one too. ive read a calender. & there were really some nice phrases. January - "The Hardest Lesson In Life Is To See Light In Darkness"Febuary - "Experience Makes Life More Fantastic"March - "Blessing Makes The World Better"April - "Life Is Like A Circus, Practice Brings Perfection"May - " Blessed Is To Sleep In Peace, And Wake Up In Peace"June - "We Need Someone To Share Our Happiness"July - "Only A Thankful Heart Can See Blessings In Daily Life"August - "Courage Is The Ladder To Achieve Your Dreams"September - "Friends Are The Ones Who Support You In The Dark"October - "Focus On The Present Is To Invest In The Future"November - "Faith Is The Turning Point From Darkness To Light"December - "Open Yourself To Enjoy Every Precious Moment"Family ! Hurry Come Back ! :D Its So Empty At Home ! PLUS ! I Want To Sleep Late Wake Late ! Xl Haha. :D Loves (: ♥
